July 4, 2003
Another Wedding Anniversary celebrated
on different planes of existence....
How I long to be whole again
Happy Anniversary
From the poem Interim
by Edna St. Vincent Millay
who so eloquently expresses
some of my deepest feelings
and emotions.....
"We were so wholly one I had not thought
That we could die apart. I had not thought
That I could move, --and you be stiff and still!
That I could speak,--and you perforce be dumb!
I think our heart strings were, like warp and woof
In some firm fabric, woven in and out;
Your golden filaments in fair design
Across my duller fibre. And to-day
The shining strip is rent; the exquisite
Fine pattern is destroyed; part of your heart
Aches in my breast; part of my heart lies chilled
In the damp earth with you. I have been torn
In two, and suffer for the rest of me.
What is my life to me? And what am I
To life,--a ship whose star has guttered out?
A Fear that in the deep night starts awake
Perpetually, to find its senses strained
Against the taut strings of the quivering air,
Awaiting the return of some dread chord?"
And so it goes, the seemingly
endless monotony of days...
Until then--when all tears
will be wiped away and time
will have no meaning and
we will once again be on the
same plane of existence...
